Since their raise to fame, the band and gone from strength to strength, selling out worldwide arena tours and achieving No.1 hits in the charts.
But behind closed doors, the Little Mix singer, has revealed that ‘horrific’ online trolling led to her attempt to commit suicide at the start of her career.
The ‘Black Magic’ singer has teamed up with BBC Three to tell her story and to emphasise the extent of how dangerous online trolling can be.
Merely hours after winning the popular ITV talent show, Jesy received hundreds of negative messages online, one read, ‘You are the ugliest thing I’ve seen in my life; you do not deserve to be in this girl band. You deserve to die.’
‘It became the worst time in my life,’ she says in the BBC documentary, ‘I wasn’t known as one of the singers in Little Mix, I was known as ‘The Fat Ugly One’
Previous to winning the X Factor, the ‘Woman like me’ singer had suffered no body confidence issues but it soon rapidly became a problem when she developed an eating disorder & depression, which went from starving herself to binge eating and hating herself.
‘I had a routine of waking up, going on twitter, searching for the worst things I could about myself. I’d type in the search bar, ‘Jesy Fat’ or ‘Jesy Ugly’ and see what would come up.’ She sadly admitted during her interview for the documentary.
‘Sometimes I didn’t even need to do that, I’d just write ‘Jesy’ and then I’d see all the horrible things. Everyone told me to ignore it, but it was like an addiction.’
Two years after winning the X Factor, the globally adored girl band performed once again on the X Factor stage as a returning guest. But the comments after the performance were so hateful that Jesy attempted to take her own life.
‘The only way I can describe the pain is like being constantly heartbroken. I remember going to the kitchen and I just took as many tablets as I could. Then my ex, who was with me at the time, was like ‘why are you crying?’ I kept saying, ‘I just want to die.’
Whilst Jesy explains how she is in a much better place now and happy in her new relationship with ‘Love Island’s’ Chris Hughes. She admits she still has those dark days.
‘Don’t get me wrong, I still have days when I feel shit in myself but instead of beating myself up about it and being miserable, I think ‘OK, I’m going to have my moment of being sad, and then I’ll be over it.’ Before, I didn’t let myself be sad.’
Boyfriend Chris Hughes expressed how immensely proud he was of his popstar girlfriend on social media. ‘My girlfriend is the best Motha F***ing role model on this planet.’
My girlfriend is the best motha fucking role model on this planet ❤️— Chris Hughes (@chrishughes_22) September 8, 2019